I would not wish to change the past.
I know I wouldn’t be the woman I am today had things been different.
My faith wouldn’t be as strong as it is today, I wouldn’t have my relationships as strong as they are today, and I certainly would not have the honor of speaking to all of you.
Do I sometimes feel sad about the lost time? Sure. But we can all feel sad if we choose to look into our pasts simply searching for losses.
I feel sad for my dad and his wife that they didn’t have a hand in raising me… because I know that pains them a lot. And I feel sad that I didn’t get to be a big sister to my newest brother and sister earlier on in their lives.
But what happened, somehow, made us more tight knit. I think our relationships somehow seem stronger than they maybe would have been if I had known all along.
There is no way to know. But I’m happy. and I’m so blessed.
I choose to see my story through the lease of beauty.